Searching for Heaven
Unrestrained“It’s been a long time”
I started the chat, stealing glance at the man beside me
Sehun
“Yeah...how many years is it?”
Sehun showed his trademark eye smile
“2 years 25 days…”
I answered him, making him look quite surprised
“…Wow...you’ve counted the days…”
He commented with a small clap of his hand
“I still remember the exact date, that’s why I can count it”
I said to him although not feeling proud myself with the fact
And awkward silence fills the air surround us
Until finally Sehun starts the conversation again
“…You never forget him”
He said and I think that’s the truth
“Yeah, I couldn’t forget Luhan…even his rubik cube still with me until now…”
I glance at the square thing on the back seat
And his painting on my room
“It’s hard, huh?”
Sehun looks at me with a bit of sympathy on his eyes
“…You too, right?”
I smiled while parking the car on the side of the street, the trees blocking the sunlight
“Yeah…I guess both of us are fools”
His sarcastic remark makes me laugh
A sad laugh
“I remember when we first met, we glared to each other while Luhan just looking at us confused”
I said as I recall the memories
I came to Luhan’s studio for the first time and there was Sehun there talking to him
Luhan smiles at me and introduced me to Sehun
Both both of us knew, we love Luhan
“Yeah…I was jealous of you, you could casually comes to him without a reason…”
Sehun smiled at me
“I was naïve at that time…maybe until now”
I lean my hands on the steering wheel
Eyes searching for the end of the street
“Me too…”
I can see Sehun nods his head
I turn my head to him, looking at him
“Don’t hate Minseok…”
I don’t want anyone to hate Minseok
“*chuckle* I won’t…Even I admire him, to make that cold blooded Luhan becomes madly in love like that”
“I never expect it to be like that too, even I thought I’m being delusional…”
Agreeing Sehun’s comment, I remembered how Luhan clings sweetly to Minseok
“Even he’s too cute for Luhan…”
I look back at Sehun
“Don’t fall in love with him”
I said with a serious tone, eyes looking straight at him
“Minseok?”
He asked
“Yes”
I nod my head
He looks back at me with deep eyes
“Do you love Minseok or Luhan more?”
The question makes me silent
I never think about it
Luhan always have a big part of my heart
I don’t know why I’m still stubborn and never let it go
That Luhan never loves me
But the scene on our first meeting flashed on my mind
I sit on the bridge
Looking longingly at the sky
Searching for heaven
Tired being a human
Thinking of every option I can to reach it
“Don’t die”
Those words caught me off guard; I turn my head and found a pretty faced man with deep eyes looking at me
In front of him is a canvas and he holds his oil paint palette and a brush on the other side
Looks like he’s a street painter
“Why do you think of that?”
I asked him curiously
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